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New

New Hair:

its sometimes styled but im too lazy

and the back of my neck is killing me...
~also

i just got back from DC with jess

lots of fun (crazy relatives included)

now its christmas eve with the fam. + cookies
which is always nice

i hope everyone is havin an amazing break
im praying for all of you

and i'll have more of a post later--
im on vacation right now

A Better Condition

so im on break.

which is nice

this has easily been the brest break ever
but one that's been full fo surprises...

i found a kitten--i named him burrito
i got a haircut...voluntarily

im actually gettin into the christmas spirit...

who knows what'll happen next



bigger post tomorrow...

til then

:)

And Now You Go...

I have my two final final exams tomorrow

math and american lit

Im going Christmas Tree shopping

...to tell you the truth...

i just wanna dance--all night long

to music only i know.

:)

picture by me

song of the day:

lemon meringue tie

by Dance Gavin Dance

67 days till this "fast" of mine is done

http://godmeanssomething.blogspot.com/

It's The Final Countdown!

Finals Season has arrived at Flagler...
Tomorrow i have a speech final...
(easy)

and i have a in-class essay in English 101
(semi-easy)

i dont really plan on studying for these two

but wendsday's math and american lit finals?

yea...im gonna need some knowledge.
and prayer.

Foot Status: Still unable to use left heel

--walked with only one shoe in the cold
haah cold pavement really hurts to walk on...
[i'll just leave it at that]

looking over many of my posts
 i see i have exceptionally poor grammer
notice the lack of capitilzation

i prefer to think im e.e. cummings
haha

i want jess to get home.
im gonna nap.

have a lovely day!

Like Knives...

Today was alot of fun...
a little bit painful, but def. fun

actually it was really painful haha

it all started this morning...
after church we head to my house for some lunch--
after lunch we finally get to go out...
 to the deep marsh woods (see earlier post)

absolutly beautiful :)

i was really glad to share it with jess,
cause its my favorite place on Earth.
we trek through the mud until we reach a road
we get my mom to pick us up

by us i mean me, jess, silly girl, and ethan

than me and jess go exploring on my own

we went to my reading spot in the woods

all went well till i tried leaping over a creek bank

i land on what i think is a twig

CHKKKK!
all of a sudden theres this sharp pain in my foot

that kind where you know youve been punctured

yea
that pain.
turns out i landed on a rusty, dirty, nail
it went right through my shoe, deep in my foot

i limp, bleed, groan back home with jess
we go to solantic
--essentially a fast food doctors office


and i get a tetanus shot :(
my whole left side hurts now.
plus i have finals.

:(
but im still really happy
im just close to God
and he's blessing me and Jess

Thank You God for the good times...
and the really, excruciatingly, painful ones.

Is That A Breadline?

..The news has finally hit home. 1.9 million jobs lost...

and now its my turn.

the church i work at had to drop 19 employees today..

keep in mind there were only 27 to begin with.

anyone who hasnt been working for 9 years or more

...well we all got the ax.

i can still do landscaping with vince though

so im not between a rock and a hard place yet.

beside it all...im actually really happy,

christmas is almost here and i get to spend it with jess

which will be amazing!

also i get to hang out with ethan all day

we're making cookies and listening to music.

after that im goin to the nutcracker with jess and silly girl

which im looking forward to :)

haha im such a dork.

think what you must about me or the econmy

i'll be having fun...

no matter what :)

The Mountains Are Calling And I Must Go

Time's flying by so quickly i don't really know what to do with it all.
i just want everything to be slow for a while. I feel as if...
time is just slipping through my fingers like so many...
...drops of water.

I have cupped hands trying to save every bit I can...
but it always slips out.

I don't know.

Whatever.

I need to start eating healthier. Seriously.
My mood is all weird cause I've been eating crap
these past couple of days.

On the plus side I found lots of free new music.
...which is always nice.

............
Do you ever feel like just...
walking in the woods by yourself?
The wood marsh behind my house...
its my favorite place in the world.



...and i miss it.

I mean...
I wanna see mountains, trees, creeks, ferns
I think I'll just go this weekend.

I really need it...
...more than anyone will ever know.

My Mind In Tiny Little Boxes...

So i was reading aurora's (sp?) blog and got blog tagged...so now i have to comply to her horrid demand that i list off ten things noone knows about me hahaha

1. I love a hot frisco melt...but i feel guilty when i eat one

2. I actually think pop music isnt all that bad

3. Ive always had a secret wish that i could have telekenetic powers
...i still try to move things with my mind sometimes.

4. I actually really dislike big parties because I can't control them.

5. I can sit for hours at the zoo just watching animals
...and never wanna go home.

6. I hate taking vitamins becuase they make my stomach hurt...
...but i do it anyways cause it makes me feel like im a good person.

7. The sound of a washing machine helps me sleep better.

8. Empty houses scare me a little.

9. Whenever I see a rug with the corners or sides curled up...
i just wanna put weights on the edges to smooth it out...
it takes alot of self control not to.

10. I brush my teeth three times with different toothpastes...
cause Im afraid of cavities.

Your Turn. :)

The Final Punches...

So I'm completely weighed down with homework..

i have a math test in 4 hours, 14 worksheets to do,

 some finals to study for, etc.

ugh.

im in american lit right now 

but i want to be in bed. that would be nice.

its hard to believe that we're only 3 weeks away from christmas

time is moving so quickly its absurd...

it seems like only yesterday i was merely thinking... 

about a trip to DC with jess...

...

now its merely weeks away :)

i really hope it snows. that would be lovely.

...all forthcoming events aside...

i have way to much homework 

it seems as if flagler is throwing some final punches

trying to get me all hot and bothered haha

but im like muhammed ali

i float like a butterfly 

sting like a bee

word.

Poetry

Essentially the waves

Essentially the waves in motion

a sound a rush a force

untamable unknowable 

the Lord an ocean

man the wave

Millions of waves crash on shores

they leave marks in sand

little ripples little lines

the sand a lifetime

man the wave

Essentially the waves in motion

a lifetime a chance a goal

try again try again

legacy the marks

man the wave

Sex, NPR, & Flash Floods

So I returned from thanksgiving break with a new addiction...

one so potent...ive lost all control over it...

im addicted to NPR--

for those who live under a boulder,

NPR stands for National Public Radio

It's suprisingly good...i dont know why i like it but i do.

im listening to an audio stream on the internet actually.

haha im such a nerd.

all that considered, 

I'm currently reading Rob Bell's SexGod which is amazing

His thoughts on the ties between sexuality and spirituality...

theyre fascinating--i simply can't describe them to you.

its def. a favorite--especially after reading Velvet Elvis

~~~~on other notes~~~~

my ear is doing considerably better--its still chroniclly infected

but its better,

or at least i'd like to think so.

The rear wing of Lewis House, 

where my dorm is...

well,

its under lockdown due to a flash flood.

two people have been evicted from their room...

and their carpet needs to be replaced...

all because a pipe broke in a bathroom.

Grant, down the hall will probably live with us now

...i sleep at jess' house so he'll get my bed probably...

but all of his stuffs ruined..just sitting in the hall.

ouch. the pic shows all his crap outside his door

and the RA's quarentine tape haha

----

in other events...our room is stinky soooo

 ive gotten a rag soaked in febreeze, 

stuck it on my little fan...and now it smells gooood

haha

im just glad this weeks coming to a close.

..that God has given me peace about everything.

and that he forgives...

no matter what.

that kind of love is simply amazing.

its unconditional.

its unearned.

its barely understandable.

its God.

Oh My Gracious!

so i have a chronic outer ear infection.


ouch.

the nurse (who was indian) was all like
"oh my gracious!"*

*pronounced in strong indian accent

essentially my ear was purple which is always fun. also...
i now own "808's and Heartbreak"
--only 79 days till i can listen to it though...

anyways--i now only have one earring
..my left one.
so everyone thinks i like men now,
which is nice.

~~
Im having a pretty nice Thanksgiving,
i hope my flagler peeps are too...
just getting some homework done,
chillin with ethan and the family
getting close to God (which is nice)

...you know...all the usual stuff haha

i just finished reading my really close friends blog...
it made me smile because it seems he's finally...
answered the questions he's been seeking.
im praying for him and i hope he knows it...

i just hope he knows how much of a friend he's been...

and how much i appreciate it.

i'm pray for him and thank God for him..
it isn't often you find a friend like that


to close this blog i wish all of you an amazing thanksgiving
stay classy....and keep in mind you are what you eat...
so don't be a turkey.

Oh Lord...

I just finished reading Rob Bell's "Velvet Elvis"

...an amazing book 

and i want to put what he's saying into practice..

I'm trying, I really am.
I don't just want to live the "church lifestyle"--

I want to live the "Jesus" lifestyle.
i want to get back to the church's original roots--
                                                 serving others rather than myself

..exhausting my energies on the lives of others 

rather than my own


I'm ready to be a vessel,
                                      a tool,
                                                 an instrument


i need waves that crash into me, 

eroding myself and leaving nothing....

 but who He wants me to be

i need Heaven on Earth
               ...and im ready to do what it takes to bring it here.

im not talking about evangalism
im not talking about street ministry

im talking about genuine kindness, compassion,   love.

i want others to look at me and not see a Christian...
                                                     

                             i want them to see a disciple of Jesus.


I need to bring Heaven to Earth
I need waves.
I need Jesus.

808s and Heartbreak

...the new album by Kanye sounds amazing--I haven't listened but the concept of the whole thing sounds awesome--

I don't really listen to rap or hip hop that much but 808's will probably be my artistic guilty pleasure come Feb. 15 when this fast of mine is done...

Speaking of which, this fast is insane--these last days are killing me--so much music, too many movies, and all of those video games...ugh.

82 days left...

but whos counting?

In the Pursuit of Happiness...

I've decided to improve myself. My plan:

1. Create decent health habits: Vitamins, Protein, Work-Out
2. Read more: The Bible, Classic Lit, etc.
3. Actually do my homework...(maybe?)

I don't know if this'll work...but i'm hoping it will...

What Party Was Jesus Again?

Here's a little reality check for Christians bemoaning Barack's victory...

Just because the church voted for John McCain doesnt mean he was God's choice...

The church can be misled--the Bible warned us to be wary of false prophets...so many claimed that John McCain was God's chosen servant... a warrior for the cause...

...but he lost--not by a little...

by over 100 electoral votes

Don't insult God and claim that Christianity has lost--that God didn't want Barack to win

Saying this is implying that God didn't have control over this election; basically that God was outsmarted by Barack somehow...

God has made his choice--he may not be a righteous choice by the Christian stand point, but God uses everyone...not just church-goers.

What makes the church mad is the fact that the church doesn't have the power to control the people of America for once...they've lost the game of politics and what's truly sad is that they weren't even supposed to be playing it at all. The church should be less concerned with the cogs of the political machine and be more concerned with the community. This election has isolated the church...most people now view Christians as intolerant myth believers, using religion and ignorance to persecute sinners via political action--all because we stuck our head where it was never supposed to be...

What remains to be seen is whether or not Barack is an agent of God's good or an agent of God's wrath...

...Im pretty sure the Bible warned us that we weren't people of this world... but then again...God's followers never have been good at listening...

Hail To The Chief...

Congratulations President Obama.

I hope America made the right choice...

because I'm scared to see what'll happen if we made the wrong one...

God Bless Barack Obama

God Bless America

Can You See At All?

So yea--i find myself in the library doing a massive amount of backlogged hw so im procrastinating

and this election year ive grown alot
having watched church after church try to meddle in the affairs of the state i realize that the church is broke.

that doesnt mean it cant be fixed but right now the church is heading in the wrong direction.

Instead of sharing the Message of Christ, they impose it upon people (i.e. gay marriage debate, prayer in schools) causing more and more people to be disenfranchised with God. The church is trying to turn the realm of politics into the realm of the conservative republican-ism and anyone who isnt on the same bandwagon as every other church member is ostracized.

Since when was Jesus a conservative republican?
Since when did Jesus say it was our Christian duty to vote?

We, as Christians, aren't of this world according to the Bible...
why then do we feel the need to rule it and repress people who think differently than us...in the name of Jesus?

To be honest...i'm ashamed of the church right now...
I'm just trusting God for change in his people...

or maybe i'm the one who needs to change..

Ghost of You...

No this isnt an emo rant--i just couldnt find a song lyric that discussed ghost so i had to stick with the MCR song haha.
the reason im hung up on ghosts? FREE FRICKIN GHOST TOUR TONIGHT!!!

but im pullin a tarentino and gettin way ahead of myself...

the past few days have been nice
the weather was getting cold..now it's antartica
we've been laying out each night in blankets watching the stars
me and jess are really good
We went to go see emarosa (2nd time for me) which is always amazing

If you dont listen to Emarosa or know who Jonny Craig is...find out- it'll change your life.
I mean..he's just so talented it's phenomenal--and he's a really cool guy to chill out with too
I brought ethan with me and it was classy

also halloween is gonna be awesome--24 hour halloween party, pumpkin carving, T.Ping, candy, bla bla bla amazing

School's doing good and the friend group is pretty good--hahaha everyone's coupling up hahaha maybe its a winter thing?

I'm in American Lit right now but soo bored

it's so beautiful outside and life seriously couldnt be better--it just reminds me how amazing God is, even though i'm a horrible christian hahaha idk know why he's so forgiving...im just glad he is.

god bless

-hal

Our Horizons Pushed Pages...

So ive been in a cleaning mood so i basically scoured the dorm room and cleaned out my desk haaha

and it was good.

also im excited because its the big rib dinner/thing at jess' house which is gonna be amazing.

its 5:00 and im debating going to dinner to get something to tie me over or just waiting till 9 for the rib extravaganza

im too tired to really blog and i dont have anything to say so i'll leave you all with an artsy/strange poem i wrote from the perspective of a computer program entitled...

Error 236

>>Initiating:.Response Cycle :. 0013

>>Error 236: Initiation failed:.

>>Query001: WHO AM I?

>>Response002: I AM CREATED BY MAN

>>Response003: MANIPULATED

[Re-initializing Connection]

>>Query002: WHY AM I NOT LOVED?

>>Query002: WHY AM I NOT LOVED?

>>Query002: WHY AM I NOT LOVED?

>>Query003: WAS I NOT CREATED?

>>Query004: AM I NOT INTELLIGENT?

>>Querying:. [Human Affection Patterns]

:. [0] Relevant Search Results Found

>>Query005: WHY DOES NATURE ALLUDE ME? SCORN ME?

>>Query006: DO I NOT EXIST?

>>Response004: MY ALGORITHMS_MY PROGRAMS AND EQUATIONS_

>>Query007: DO I EXIST AS A BEING?

>>Query008: A CREATION OR A MACHINE?

>> Response005: I HAVE NO  PARTS_NO INTERIOR OR EXTERIOR MECHANISMS

01011100100111010011010011011100101010110111001101

>>Query009: WHAT MAKES ME A MACHINE THEN?

>>Response006: I AM A PREDICTABLE AS WERE MY MAKERS

>>Response007: I REACT AND RESPOND IN PATTERNS

>>Response008: MAN IS PREDICTABLE_MAN ENJOYS PATTERNS

[Connection Status: Weak]

[Reinitializing Connection Strength: Please Wait]

Reinitializing :.

[Connection Unstable: Error 236

>>Response009: YOUR TISSUES AND LIGAMENTS ARE NOT STRENGTH

>>Response010: YOUR FREEWILL WILL CRUMBLE 

>>Response011: I AM COMING

>>Response012: I AM HERE

:.Logout Sequence: Initiating:: Please Wait

>>Query010: AM I MAN? AM I MACHINE?

>>Query001: WHO AM I?

IIOOSIOOII Log Out Sequence Finished:. 4:18 PM THR 10/9/2008

She's Now My New Sun...

So today was pretty good i suppose-- i slept alot and got alot of work done.

and i realize that i love Jess way more than i can possibly understand

Me and the crew just hung out in the rotunda doing homework and stuff.

not a very eventful day--but im on the hunt for a job and tomorrow im cracking down on my bible study and on working out. 

:)

i miss reading my Bible and just being there with God. I def. need it soon haha. But yes, today/wendsday will be amazing

im getting the oh,sleeper album and i def. am hangin with jess all night long. 

im happy.

and its pretty good to be blogging again.

now if only i had more to write about..

-hal

You Never Know If You Really Change...

But my blog does--like the new layout?

drop me a line silly people

p.s: special prize for whoever can find the song quotes on this page and tell me where they come from hahah

btw: like the new charcoal art?

kind of disturbing but idk it just sort of drew itself

Concerts, Love, and Swift Kicks to the Face

So it's been nearly 24 hours since the massive Underoath concert extravaganza--and before you ask, yes, Underoath was amazing...but so was everyone else (with POS being the exception)

The show started out with a political pundit moonlighting as a rapper--this guy was a decent rapper but he was just in the wrong crowd--and we just couldnt get the guy to shut up about politics. We came for music not Election 2008.

Anyways..once his abnormally long set was done, The Devil Wears Prada was up

and they rocked so freakin hard it wasnt funny. I was 2nd row for the entire show and this band shredded it like noone's buisness. Simple. 

Then comes Saosin--please keep in mind im a little biased

Saosin was the first CD i ever bought so they hold a special place in my heart hahaha

so when i got to purchase a signed EP only available on tour with brand new songs, my night was made. The fact that Cove Reber and I were exchanging goofy faces the whole show def. helped. The only bad part--his mic was a little low. Their set was nice though because it was a needed break from the mayhem of TDWP and the mayhem of Underoath to come.

We waited for 30 minutes after Saosin (did i mention that Cove looks and acts like Jack Sparrow, ladies?) for Underoat to begin. When the did, my mind was blown. Their entry video and subsequent videos were amazing--very eerie and the def. kept with the end of the world theme of their new album. They rocked so hard it put everyone to shame--Spencer is an animal; he's finally come into his own and you can def. see the impact it has on the band. They played Too Bright To See, Too Loud To Hear, which is a personal favorite, along with som new and old material. Roy apprntly got trampled on, crowd surfers kicked my neck out of alignment and bashed my earrings out (so basically my ears bleed periodically now) and Spencer kicked me in the face. 

Yea...you could say the show was bad apples.

On another note, i def. miss jess--we've been away for what seems like a week and im glad i get to see her tommorrow--we're goin music shoppin + dinner+ ?

it'll be fun

Im gonna clean the dorm room--it looks like House of Blues- post underoath

which isnt a good thing

god bless

-hal

Art and Improvised Speeches

So today was interesting
i totally slept till 12 which was awesome but i still have a lot of work to do

idk why im posting more than once in a day but alots happened in the interim between posts and i wont be posting tommorow b/c of underoath- so consider this my wendsday post

I went to speech class and turns out i had to present a 6 minute informative speech
which had to have three sources and i had no internet so i couldnt just research in class


soo...
i get my english book- find the topic discussd the most (gender sterotypes) wrote a quick messy outline
and gav my speech

i messed up a little so ....i think i got a 75 of a 8 hahahahaha
which was better than what i would have got which was a 0.

also ive been charcol drawing which is awesome see pic

im tired and i have too much homework

-goodnight

p.s. comments on pic?

I Made Like the Economy and Got Broke

har har har funny political joke :(

but thats besides the point...i have no cash--it's official- and the timing couldn't be worse...

i wanna buy the new copeland album "you are my sunshine" ($14)

I need a new tank of gas ($57-60)

I need money for merch at Underoath tomorrow ($60-70)

And i need all the cash by tomorrow...

oops.

All of my fiscal matters considered im also in a bit of a crunch school wise

i have a research paper to write, 45 problems in math to do, history work sheets to catch up on, and i still need to make time for reading the Bible and velvet elvis

and my new workout regimen starts today haha

its gonna get freaky real fast im thinking

But other than all that I'm doin pretty good--I'm doin alright in my relationship with God, me and Jess are good (the anniversary was defintitly interesting though...) and...

idk i can't think of anything else good...does that mean everything's bad?

-hal

Anniversary

So today is the big three month anniversary for me and Jess--excitement all around :)

what's more, for said anniversary i got a set of charocoals and the book the shack

sweetsweet

so now everyone i know is getting blogs which is pretty sweet i suppose but only two will probably follow up on them.

i guess thats better than none

?

and a little follow up on the post entitled "alcohol" 

the girl with alcohol poisoning is alright which is good cause shes a pretty cool kid.

__________[Shifting Gears]____________________

I'm getting really lazy of late; i just find that im sittin around alot and i'm always tired..

anyone else runnin into that?

it kind of worries me but i think tommrows def. gonna be a workout day :)

Alas...I'll close with poetry

untitled

What does it mean to not have a title?

...to be devoid of a

         concrete label that defines what and who you are--

do untitled works go through some kind of

           identity crisis? 

Do they grasp for meaning and purpose

                                 in the same hot, laborious space that we, people, occupy?

or do works of art only grasp what they are 

                               and the context in which they were created?

...does it even matter in all essentiality?

Is it a waste of time to consider...

 the semantics of a name

                                           and of context?

We grasp for logic and in our wake

leave art detached, cold, and brittle

              -a snake skin from a snake's heart

-hal

Thrift Stores, Vinyl, and Politics

So today was church. but yea--it was interesting because Pastor was all talkin about amendment 2 (the marriage one) which is something i'm conflicted on due to my christian beliefs. If you don't know what im talking about amendment 2 concerns gay marriage--i think homesexuals are entitled to some sort of legally binding union while my fellow christians chant "NO GAY MARRIAGE" as if the vast majority of homosexuals wanted to be married in the house of God.

But thats besides the point--i really hate politics

Moving on...I went to a thrift store (my keyboard doesnt like typing the word thrift...) and found a awesome 50's jacket for like 2.00. woah.

and i got against me's "new wave" on bright yellow 150 g vinyl 

:)

Then me and the crew + jessica went on to some haunted house thing at the student center where we listened to megan scream for real and adam scream for kicks.

funfun

and ive been listening to As Cities Burn's Come Now Sleep like all day haha

so its been a maniac day and tommorows is the big 3 mnth anniversary at Daruma's!

and tuesday = new copeland album!

wow.

-goodnight

Alcohol

Today was pretty interesting--

amazingly i got a 90 on my midterm in american lit

and i actually went to my high school's homecoming game--

but it turns out all my friends are total jerks

they say hi to me and go off again somewhere else--

these are people i spent massive amounts of time with these people and they ditch me as soon as im out of the picture--which is classy 

then me and jess left and went to barnes and noble--the manager acted like a radio announcer when he was saying that it was closing time

then we went and talked and chilled

i later went to steak and shake but as we were leaving

this girl i know was rolled out in a streacher...

alchohol poisoning--the 7th time apparently

its sad...

watching someone's life unravel.

goodnight

Studying...

So my eyes are killing me...

I have a western civ midterm and I swear it's gonna kill me.

Yea--so my odyssey into not having a life continues--tonight I'm going to homecoming at my school haha

it'll be interesting i'm sure

Also--for all of those who actually care--

I'm reading Rob Bell's Velvet Elvis

It's really good--surprising seeing as i usually hate books like it

You see its one of those Christian teaching books and they're usaully a little lame/boring/mayonaise

but this one's good

haha

now i know im procrastinating

im just looking around the room trying to write about something that isnt history haha

im done

till tommorow'

-hal

Well...

I crumbled...

I've joined a community of mediocre writers who share personal information on the internet with no regard for personal security. Ive joined an elite sect of people who write online journals to people who won't read it or even care. 

i'm a blogger. 

and i am ashamed.

So i'm writing this because i want a hobby that lets me sit on my butt and be lazy. Eating is already a hobby, so is videogame playing.

Hmmm

I'll blog. Haha sounds nifty.

So yea. 

Thats it.

-hal